What am I waiting for?

I hate to come back to the subject of dating, seeing that it isn't something I do very often, but I'm going to.

At least once a day I get asked about some aspect of dating. Everywhere from why don't you date to are you going to date so-and-so. Everyone always wants an answer, typically they want to hear the answer that they like.

For instance, today I went to the homecoming of a friend of my sister's. I knew her fairly well but most of all she went to my same mission and I wanted to talk to her about it. As I walked in I ran into a friends older brother, "Joe"'s older brother in fact. I have known him ever since we moved into our current house when I was 2. I ended up sitting next to him and we chatted here and there about this and that at one point he asked "so are you going to date (the girl speaking)?". First thing that came to my head was a straight no, but to be somewhat polite I just said "I've never really thought about it".

He told me "don't think about it, you think way to much."

This may be true, I do a lot of thinking, about a lot of things.

But really, thinking about it or not, this girl just isn't in the realm of what I'm looking for.

My question is, "does everything need to have an answer?"

Most of the time a simple yes or no is enough to end an inquiry or conversation.

Often times I feel that most people around don't deserve to hear the real "why", and that is what I am most in need of. Someone who I can actually express what's going on in this head of mine to.

I need someone who would understand that not every question must have an answer, and who won't criticize me for giving an answer that they don't agree with or don't want to hear.

As I have mentioned in the past people have come in and out of my life who have been of great support to me, sometimes just someone to talk to, but now I feel as alone as every. I get no greater feeling from something as I do from someone who I feel genuinely cares about me and what I have to say.

Yeah this may be weird for a guy to admit but we need people to talk to as well.
Girls seem to have emotional break down if they get too bottled up without talking about it but guys tend to just keep it in, day after day. Some people just go off on an adventure or take a day for themselves biking or skiing or whatever, but I tend to find myself wanting to talk about it.
It's not like I have crazy issues or anything but I just kinda need someone to talk to to figure what direction to go. I usually figure it out on my own but I tend to let my thoughts get so jumbled I just need someone there to help me sort them out.
I just hoping someone like that comes my way again real soon.

That is all.

Peace and Love,

Anonymous Blogger

Good time.

I figure before I write another somewhat serious post I need to have another happy post.

So there I was, around noon, sitting in the institute on thursday when I got a text from a friend.

"You coming dancing tonight?"

Dancing? I had heard nothing about dancing anywhere for anything.

Turns out he had planned to go to 80's night at Area 51.

I'd never been and have always thought Area 51 to be quite the dive, but knowing that I need to take advantage of any opportunity I can get to go have some fun, I went.

Typically in my past I've been the one that's had a hard time putting myself out there on a dance floor to potentially make a fool of myself, and usually spend my time on the wall.

Not anymore.

I don't know what ever kept me from breaking out a bit but over the past few years I've been more willing to put myself out there, and oh how good it feels.

Seriously, when I'm out there just cutting a rug, I feel happier and more confident that ever. It really is the strangest thing. Now I still wouldn't say I'm the smoothest most coordinated guy out there when it comes to dancing with the girls but I doesn't stop me from trying.

It's just a real good time.

I went, I had fun, and it was a successful night out.

Man, I have so much on my mind and everything I write or even think about seems to spark more subjects for writing. I'll just leave you with this for now and hope to write again soon.

Peace and Love,

Anonymous Blogger

Yesterday was a good day, for many reasons.

First it was an amazing ski day. When got up to the mountain nice and early and headed toward an area that not many people had been to yet. After a few good fun runs we(two friends and myself) met up with 2 more friends, one of which was the friend who tried to set me up a couple weeks ago, I'

ll call him "Joe". A couple runs later the resort opened up a restricted area after doing some avalanche work and we were the first ones up. It ended up just being me and "Joe" that decided to hike up farther and we got some new fresh tracks and we was really good skiing. The other 3 got way ahead of us so we just picked a line through some trees and we were just cruising. "Joe was lower than me and stopped by some trees and pointed out a big wind lip and as I was going he pointed it out to me and without saying anything or stopping a just cruised down and hit and threw a nice backflip and just kept going.

After I stopped and he caught back up to me all he had to say was good things and gave me props.

I was feeling pretty good about myself.

As the runs went on we hiked more and I spotted a good cliff to hit and hit it first and "Joe" hit it after me and thanked me for spotting it.

Later in the day after we had gone home I posted a picture on Instagram and he again commented how I "slayed today".

All I've got to say is that it was amazingly refreshing to be complimented on what you work on, versus critiqued on things you already know you don't do so well, especially when it is coming from the same person.

So all I can say is it was such a relief it was to have a day full of good times with good friends and nothing but positive words going around.

My advice to anyone who sees this is;

focus on the positives in life, it is way to easy to be complacent with the negative because it comes so easily. The more positivity you spread and the more you focus on people's strengths rather than their short comings the better you both will become.

That is all.

Goodnight world.

More Me

Being Super Bowl weekend and all...crazy sports fan make me question their sanity.
I love sports as much as the next guy, but I know too many people who take it too far.
All the fantasy football, basketball, baseball, etc. just doesn't interest me in the slightest.
If there is a sports event being televised it most likely is on at my house. I find different events to stream on my computer, but going so far as to memorize every teams roster and follow all these athletes is just too much. Sure I'll root for certain teams but being super vocal in a win or loss just isn't me.
I would say I am most attached to soccer.


Anyway I guess I'll go on telling you a bit more about me.

I write letters, hand written letters, to people who have played meaningful roles in my life.
It's been awhile since written one, and let's just say I wish there was someone who I felt needed one right now.

I'm quite good at remembering names.
I find it's almost trendy to be bad at remembering names and I think people put way to little effort into remembering names. Especially if I can spot just one unique thing about you I'll be sure to remember you for quite some time.
I'm also good at remembering where I meet people.
Like the other day, I ran into this kind I haven't seen in probably 3 years.
All he could say is that I look familiar and I remembered his name and where we knew each other from. Go figure.

I'm very observational. I catch myself looking around every room I am in and taking mental notes of all things present, including people. I catch myself glancing up at people walking by and I link them to other places I have seen them. Then if they ever say that I look familiar I just have to play it cool like "oh, maybe I've seen you at such and such building" even though I know exactly where I have seen them.
It's not something I do consciously to be creepy, it just kinda happens.

I am also really good at remembering directions.
I had to pick something up for my brother in Salt Lake the other day, so he gave me the address of this house. I looked it up on my laptop before I left campus, took a mental note of the route and the turns ...didn't ever need to pull out my phone.

Treating girls like real people.
I don't find dating to be a game, I don't think that I am greater than any woman, and I treat them with respect and act as much like a gentleman as I can.
Chivalry is not dead in me.