What am I waiting for?

I hate to come back to the subject of dating, seeing that it isn't something I do very often, but I'm going to.

At least once a day I get asked about some aspect of dating. Everywhere from why don't you date to are you going to date so-and-so. Everyone always wants an answer, typically they want to hear the answer that they like.

For instance, today I went to the homecoming of a friend of my sister's. I knew her fairly well but most of all she went to my same mission and I wanted to talk to her about it. As I walked in I ran into a friends older brother, "Joe"'s older brother in fact. I have known him ever since we moved into our current house when I was 2. I ended up sitting next to him and we chatted here and there about this and that at one point he asked "so are you going to date (the girl speaking)?". First thing that came to my head was a straight no, but to be somewhat polite I just said "I've never really thought about it".

He told me "don't think about it, you think way to much."

This may be true, I do a lot of thinking, about a lot of things.

But really, thinking about it or not, this girl just isn't in the realm of what I'm looking for.

My question is, "does everything need to have an answer?"

Most of the time a simple yes or no is enough to end an inquiry or conversation.

Often times I feel that most people around don't deserve to hear the real "why", and that is what I am most in need of. Someone who I can actually express what's going on in this head of mine to.

I need someone who would understand that not every question must have an answer, and who won't criticize me for giving an answer that they don't agree with or don't want to hear.

As I have mentioned in the past people have come in and out of my life who have been of great support to me, sometimes just someone to talk to, but now I feel as alone as every. I get no greater feeling from something as I do from someone who I feel genuinely cares about me and what I have to say.

Yeah this may be weird for a guy to admit but we need people to talk to as well.
Girls seem to have emotional break down if they get too bottled up without talking about it but guys tend to just keep it in, day after day. Some people just go off on an adventure or take a day for themselves biking or skiing or whatever, but I tend to find myself wanting to talk about it.
It's not like I have crazy issues or anything but I just kinda need someone to talk to to figure what direction to go. I usually figure it out on my own but I tend to let my thoughts get so jumbled I just need someone there to help me sort them out.
I just hoping someone like that comes my way again real soon.

That is all.

Peace and Love,

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