2 Year Hiatus

There seems to be a trend with me and this blog, after a long hiatus I come back to it and write how I have failed and will try to do better but never do.

It is what it is.

I don't ever have a definitive reason for coming back to this blog but I often check in and catch up on some blog that I follow and never take the time to write something myself, which defeats the whole purpose of why I started this thing. 

Anyway, it's pretty much been two years since I have written anything of consequence.

In these last two years I have had some pretty high highs and some pretty low lows.

Starting with summer of 2011, I didn't know at the time, but that summer would be the last summer I was going to be able to spend with my dad. Without knowing what was coming I naturally chose to spend more time with him. We had many family trips planned and were able to do some things we had been wanting to do for a long time, and somethings we had planned we still weren't able to do.

We had a family trip planned for the second week in August, a trip we had been wanting to do for years. Two weeks before that trip I was invited on a Lake Powell trip by some new friends that was at the same time. One week later after a short backpacking trip my dad suffered a stroke that lead to minor complications resulting in a week long stay in the hospital. Because of that, we had to cancel the trip. Members of my family still went but because my dad couldn't be there I decide to go to Lake Powell with a group of people who were mostly strangers.

That would turn out to be one of the best decisions I have ever made. I met some of my current best friends on that trip, some who were just what I was going need over the next 7 months.

October rolled around and my dad seemed to be recovering well, gaining strength and coordination. Fall break he had another stroke and that began another list of complication.

We don't know what exactly what was going on but to make a long story short over the next 5 months he slowly weakened.

In March surrounded by our immediate family he passed into the next life. 

As sad as it was, and as hard it was to watch him go, I felt at peace.

If it weren't for some of the friends I made that fall I don't know how I would have handled it all.

One of those friends who helped me the most lost her dad 5 years before and was there as a support to help me through it and I will be forever grateful for her. There were also many other who were there for me when I needed them.

Now that a year has passed and things are back to normal, at least as normal as they can be, I feel somewhat empty. I've been told I handled the whole ordeal extremely well, but that, I believe has been somewhat to my detriment. Life is smooth, but as I have moved on, so have those friends I came so close to. We will forever be friends, but I just don't see them very often for various reasons.

Along with friends moving on, this summer both my older brother and younger sister will be getting married leaving me the lone ranger at home. With one more year of school I am left in a very awkward situation, and have some very big decisions to make over the next year or so.

The biggest decisions I will face in the next year deal mostly with school, career path, and dating.

I always have so many thoughts and things going through my mind it's hard to organize and make any sense of them. I want to make another effort at this blog and report on my progress of making sense of this world and pursuing the life I imagine myself living.

I think that is sufficient rambling for the day, I hope to check back in shortly.

Peace and Love,

Anonymous Blogger

Where have I been?

Who knows. I had something posted here but by now, March 2013, it is completely irrelevant.

Cheers,
Anonymous Blogger

Compliments

Compliments are possibly the greatest thing you could either give or receive.

They are completely priceless, and they can change a life.

I know at first glance we judge people and get first impressions but there will always be something about the people we see that can earn them a compliment. It is always good to sit back for an extra moment and watch or talk to people. Even if you don't know them or think you could ever be friends it will make their day just by giving them a simple compliment and I would be willing to bet it will improve your disposition as well.

I don't receive compliments on a regular basis but when I do it really makes me feel better, no matter what kind of day I am having. It makes a bad day not so bad and it makes a good day better.

I guess it could be a bit of karma cause I  sure know I don't compliment as often as I could. Whether or not it could be considered karma it is always important to look out for the greater good. If you see someone alone you don't have to talk to them, but a simple compliment could definitely brighten there day even if it is already bright.

Even anonymous compliments can make a huge difference. Sometimes more so than face to face compliments. I think it is that naturally people don't like frontal recognition so they hold back what they really feel. I am the classic example of this, hence the anonymous blog. I am more likely to give a deeper  more sincere compliment when I know they won't know who it is from. It also makes them think of who actually notices them and they strive to continue being an example to all. 

You can bet on me taking more advantage of the opportunities I get to compliment people. Honestly I hope there is some karma involved for selfish reasons. We all like when people notice us and I'll admit it straight up. If I take more opportunity to verbally notice someone, perhaps more people would do the same for me.

Well I hope this post is a little more interesting that yesterdays.

Again, much peace & more love,

                             Anonymous Blogger

Reflection......

Go ahead and skip til it says "priorities".

The first bit is just a bunch of thought vomit.

(ok so there was a lot of "thought vomit" in this space but i decided to do away with it cause it really wasn't making any sense and would be wasted time of anyone who read it, i'll try to organize it into later entries) 

Priorities.

Life is all about priorities.

I have learned that making a list of all the things you have on your mind and listing their importants helps greatly in organizing my life.

I haven't been so good at setting priorities and even if I have them set it is hard to follow.

But I know that by putting the effort in and showing ourselves we have even the slightest bit of commitment, we gain confidence in ourselves.

To do lists are a big way to stay organized. I can get super side-tracked, I am huge day dreamer, I think about all sorts of things, but when I actually buckle down and stay focused it really does feel good. I get a sense of accomplishment. Today for instance, at work I read 30 pages for one of my classes. Granted work was slow and I could afford the time, it was much better than sitting, staring out my little teller window like I usually do. Plus, time flew by and I was outta there in no time.

So for me, until school is done, school is my first priority. I really need to step it up these last few weeks and any time spent studying will be better spent than if I were to day dream about something that will probably never happen.

This post isn't exciting at all is it? Didn't think so. I guess my brain is still off in la-la-land, where ever that is, if it even exists, if it doesn't, then I have no idea where my brain is.

Tomorrow will be more exciting, I promise.

Until then, Peace & Love,

             Anonymous Blogger

Highs and Lows

In my recent wanderings I have come upon a few reminders of how important it is to have the highs and especial the lows in our lives. 

Of course no one ever enjoys the lows and i'm sure we would all just rather then go away forever.

But the fact is, without the lows we wouldn't ever know just how sweet the highs are.

Personally I have had many lows, probably more than I would care to have, but it truly has been those lows that give true meaning to the highs that I have experienced in my life, and i'm not talking about drugs, totally not my style.

We can experience all sorts of highs and lows. Anywhere from losing a pet to losing a close family member or friend, doing bad on test to getting hurt physically or emotionally.

Fact is they all suck and we would rather not deal with them.

But,

if we didn't have those times how differently would we feel about getting a new pet, having someone special enter our lives, acing a test, accomplishing that physical goal we set, or having someone totally make our day?

I don't think it would be the same without the lows.

All of these things are things I have experienced, the good and the bad, and I am grateful for every one of them.

We never know when the next high or low will come, but if we look to future with an open heart and an open mind it is amazing the things we can learn from all the circumstances we encounter.

Well I hope this post makes up for all the days I have missed.

Peace & Love,

              Anonymous Blogger 

Well, today I spent the day in my Heaven.

The crowds were low and the powder was deep.

I love skiing more than anything right now in my life.

I am sad it ends so soon.

The fortunate thing is I do have other past times to look forward to.

I will talk all about those then the time comes.

As for now, I am tired and have meetings in the morning. Blah.

Goodnight.

Peace & Love,
        Anonymous Blogger

Majestic

This morning at about 11 o'clock, after an hour hike from the top of a ski lift I found myself at the top of a peak, all alone, looking out over the valley, surrounded by acres and acres of slopes covered in freshly fallen snow. I hiked to this point to ski a line, that I have been scoping out all season, for the third time. But before I skied down I took a moment to ponder upon the greater things in life and how blessed I am to have the liberties I do.

I also thought of how great God is, and how grateful for his creations I am. Particularly the mountains and the snow. I know many of you cannot wait for summer and in a few ways I can't either, but I will never take winter for granted.

Winter is my favorite season, by far, and i'll explain.

Skiing

I don't need to say much more than that.

I say this because skiing is that time(that I talked about last post) I use to forget about the world.

I often have no one to go with, but I don't mind.

Skiing and the snow put my mind at ease and all I think about is the next turn I am going to make, the next cliff i'm going to hit, or the next chute i'm going to hike to.

Skiing for me is so much more than making a statement to others.

I ski for me.

When I think of heaven I think of endless powder runs and mountains covered in snow above the clouds.

Snow is majestic, the closest thing to floating that you can ever experience is skiing through freshly fallen snow. 

Nothing is more pure and nothing is more soft.

 Nothing.

I could go on and on describing my thoughts about snow, but you would never know what it is to me,

and this is fine.

I hope we all can find something that takes our minds off of the world. 

We all need our own special time.

Skiing is mine, what's yours?

Peace & Love,

                Anonymous Blogger